| Changeling query |
[14 Aug 2007|04:49pm] |
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Now I don't play as much changeling as some folks (i'm looking at you here Rhona) is there anyway for the fae consciousness to remain one the wilder years have commenced/passed? my terminology maybe wrong here but hopefully you can help, plus what happens when a changeling is embraced do you know? Any and all help will be appreciated.
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| So very, very tired |
[09 Jul 2007|06:10pm] |
Gah, awake again.
Got back from working TITP last night after doing 40+ hours in 3 days.
My legs don't work, my ears are sunburnt and my body's internal clock thinks it's saturday afternoon.
Overall it was an interesting experience, never been to TITP and after working it I have no desire to go as a punter. Tho i'm led to believe the punters were treated better than most of the staff, well at least on the security side of things. I could give you a detailed gripe but I wont so here's a few points of dismay this weekend to anyone who went and thought they had it bad.
The marquis where all our shift were sleeping (47 staff members in one tent :s)got flooded and at least half of the staffs belongings were ruined, mine included. onsite catering was terrible, basically a roll for breakfast, a sandwich for lunch and cold dinners not including the cans of juice at £1.50. Then there was the hours, you'd be lucky if you worked under 15 hours on a single shift, think i did two 18s and a 16.
Don't get me wrong, apart from that it was a good weekend, met some decent folk and had a good laugh while working, at least when it wasn't raining that is. We had two guys claiming they had pipe bombs and another guy with a kitchen knife who's sole purpose there was to ruin peoples tents. WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT? There were a few runners and the usual mix-up and flaring of tempers about the whole ticket/wristband policy.
Well anyway that's enough from me, gonna try get some more sleep now, hope you guys had a good weekend, remember, it is never a good idea to shout at 6 large glaswegians "i'm a terrorist, I have a pipe-bomb" as it is guaranteed to ruin your day.
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| "Enough is enough" so decrees the King of Bastards |
[21 May 2007|02:29pm] |
Joking aside, this is the way i seem to be portrayed.
Right, apologies if this seems slightly erratic but i've been going back and changing bits and adding bits over the past few hours or so it's taken for me to write this.
As you can guess by the title, i've had enough, i've had enough of the shit, enough of the back-biting and enough of so called friends turning their backs on me, and before anyone tries to jump on it, no I do NOT mean Rich.
Now for the past while now i've not made mention of the situation that has happened, and since i've made mention to him previous you'll know i'm referring to Rich when i say that some people want to share their side, it's understandable, i'm not berating him for it, we all deal with stuff in our own ways. Now this is just an opinion not a self righteous view, however i've never felt the need to, nor the need to share my problems cause it's more than just me in this. However I can't actually take anymore, now I know that some of the shit that's got me riled up is from locked lj posts and lj accounts I was not supposed to know about, but there are people out there who feel I should maybe know what's been said about me and I think if you were in the same situation you'd want to know too.
Now i'm gonna try keep this from turning into a Rich rant, i'm sure you've all heard his rants about me, neither am I gonna say that Rich is a lair and that everything was his fault as there's no point, the damage has been done. Fi and Rich are over and personally I see no way of it ever resolving, Fi has given over to the fact it's over long ago and I think Rich has now realized that too. What i intend to do however is say "no more, I am not the std-ridden, lying, homewrecking piece of shit i'm made out to be" Now if memory serves me correct (and a quick check of my profile) Almost all of you on my list are friends of Rich, again I may sound like a broken record, i'm not here to rant (it may seem like it though) slag him off or change your opinion of your friend, I just feel I should be allowed to defend myself where I see fit.
Now I could do a list, of accusations and defences but I believe that would take too long and get boring very quickly and i've found myself sick of having to defend myself against rumours that have been coming thick and fast, The one thing I will defend against though is the recent accusation that for the four months running up to the breakup I was doing everything in my power to destroy the relationship, in fact I was doing everything I could to save it. Now I know people may choose not to believe this but i'm now reaching the pissed off stage and I couldn't honestly care, I did try, I tried hard, I asked Fi to give him chance after chance, I even said to him what I thought would be the solution, I even covered his back on little things to try make things better and everytime they were dismissed. Let's see what else, oh yeah, interrogation, the closest thing i've done to interrogating people is mentioning to one or two people of Fi's suspicions that Rich was cheating on her and given the circumstances I couldn't blame her.
Anyway I digress, back to why i'm here and pissed off and defensive.
My personal is just that, MY personal life. I have no idea why it should be brought up as an excuse for trying to break up a relationship, in fact the entire break-up one of the reasons I was in no hurry to get into a relationship myself. I've never asked Rich to lie for me concerning who i'm fucking, if he has it's not been for my benefit but for his own. Now the whole thing between Sarah and myself again was only between us so it doesn't need touched upon here. What else has been niggling at me, oh yeah, me being unapproachable. I like to think that i'm a stressed out but laid back kinda guy, if you have a problem, concerning me or not i'd like to think you'd be able to come to me and talk Those of you that have met me in person i'd like to believe that's how you see me, if not well... not much I can do about that really.
I think I keep things close to my chest, one of the reasons I don't post much here is because of that fact, if I need to talk about it i'll talk to someone who (I think) I can trust or a good friend, I don't go around dancing and singing celebrations of having done something that was difficult for me to do, yes, surprise surprise even given the circumstances, asking someone to leave is not on my all time fun-to-do list. While i'm on the subject of the flat, i'll clear one thing up now, yes, the conversation between Fi and myself concerning the current flat did take place, the only difference from my side of the story is that I didn't think he asleep, I just didn't care. We may have had another month or two left in the lease but I did not want to spend another second in the insect infested damp-ridden old flat, plus a slight sense of duty towards my landlord friend who went against his usual terms of not letting to friends. It was also made aware to me that Rich has made his opinion known that I should be grateful to him for putting me up when I was homeless, and that by my asking him to leave didn't show this, however (I seem to love this word tonight) he forgets there were another 3 people living in the flat too, one of them being Fi. Also i'd like to point out when roles were reversed and he was couch-jumping I tried my best to put him up when I could and even tried to get a flat in a questionable area against my better judgment to help him, which resulting in it backfiring and us falling out for the first time (in very similar ways to this which is interesting)
One more thing, another thing i've heard, the relationship between Fi and myself and that Rich has been defending us both saying that it isn't so. This comes from a man who has described recently as having a "real" hatred for me and has made accusations about my person in the last few weeks that i've read with my own eyes. If I felt that way about someone I wouldn't defend them, i've aslo heard myself refferred to as a "sexual predator" trying to pounce on Fi in her vulnerable state. if i'm gonna go after anyone, it won't be when they're vulnerable.
I think that's about it, can't really think of anything else which is worth mentioning.
I think i've been reasonable, i've tried not to get my involvement in this broadcasted across the internet(or livejournal as the case may be) I let him keep his stuff here while he got stuff sorted out, even let his cats stay here even though i'm allergic to them. But now i've had enough, I want him out of my life, I want nothing to do with him, I don't even hate him after all this he's now just some guy who wants to talk shit about me. Now i've been told i'm doing everything i've been accussed of to get attention and stand in the spotlight, if I did I believe I would have said something before now. Now i'm sorry if this does read like a rant but as I said I don't post much and try keep things to myself so it may tend to get rant-ish.
Now if any of you reading this still think i'm the father of lies and deceit and that i'm responsible for single-handedly and cold-heartidly breaking up my two friends relationship then feel free to delete me from your list and i'll kindly do the same, however (there it is again) if you want to keep me on your list then let me know.
Fuck, that's some serious reading. Hope I haven't bored you all to tears, once again with my apologies if this has sounded like a rant or i'm trying to justify the break-up, that's not my concern, I could give you my account on what happened but I don't want to air other peoples dirty laundry and i'm sure that you lot don't want to read it.
The last thing I want to do is to apologize to all the friends that have been caught in this shit-storm, I never intended to drag anyone into this and I hope everything is good on your respective ends.
Well, there you have it.
Bye for now, Brian.
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| Hmmm, took longer than expected |
[21 May 2007|02:33am] |
It's written, it's taken longer than I thought, it's gonna get slept-on and re-read tomorrow so it's not posted in anger.
Night y'all
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| Yummy |
[16 May 2007|09:03pm] |
Just had Kangaroo tonight albeit in burger form. Was well tasty.
How you lot this fine, wet night?
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| Interesting enough.... |
[07 May 2007|05:40pm] |
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Akira Yamoaka - Letter, From the lost days |
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I know I don't really post here that often, i've usually nothing that interesting to say or if I was gonna it would probably be to rant. However i'm quite positive that all you people out in LJ-land don't want to hear me moan. :)
The past few monthat have been interesting, for anyone who cares (or feigns interest) i'll more than likely be spilling my guts on most subjects I can think of. If you wanna read it, you'll find it ( here )
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| Stolen from Jo |
[13 Jan 2007|09:34pm] |
1. Can you cook?
2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. What was the last book you read?
5. What's your philosophy on life?
6. Negative or Optimistic?
7. What was your dream growing up?
8. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
9. Do you think I'm sane or insane?
10. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
11. How do you fall asleep?
12. A million bucks.. what would you do with it?
13. Can you sing or dance?
14. Will you re post this so I can fill it out?
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| Hmmmm! Not Bad |
[30 Nov 2006|06:01pm] |
 | You scored as Hugh Hefner. You will look young well into old age, possibly because the skin from your nether region has been used so much as to pull the rest of your epidermis tight, either that or it's a whole shitload of plastic surgery. You will be the envy of most men throughout their teenage years well into their 40's and maybe even old age. However, you are the scourge of all romantics amd someday all lovelorn creatures become homicidal psychopaths so an escort of bodyguards as well as scantily clad members of the other gender is well in order.
Hugh Hefner | | 100% | Dante Alighieri | | 83% | Adolf Hitler | | 75% | Friedrich Nietzsche | | 75% | Sigmund Freud | | 75% | Miyamoto Musashi | | 67% | Elvis Presley | | 42% | Jesus Christ | | 42% | O.J. Simpson | | 42% | Charles Manson | | 33% | Steven Morrissey | | 33% | Stephen Hawking | | 25% | Mother Teresa | | 17% | C.G. Jung | | 17% | </td>
What Pseudo Historical Figure Best Suits You?
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| Dear Santa |
[16 Nov 2006|06:12pm] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
In August I stole ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) azrelle's purse (-30 points). In July I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In September I put gum in invaderfi's hair (-12 points). In June I pushed purplesnap in the mud (-17 points). In November I pulled hentai_ninja's hair (-5 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-63 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!
Sincerely,
firebastard |
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| Today is a good day. |
[08 Nov 2006|11:06pm] |
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Today i got a phonecall from my mate telling me some good news, about an hour later I was shaking hands and drooling over Mr Jeff Hardy! GLEEEEEEEE!!!! I know some of you may not care, but i'm happy as a pig in shit now!!
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| Covered in BEES!!!!..... |
[19 Jul 2006|04:41pm] |
...well wasps actually but bees sounds funnier.
A strange thought occurred to me yesterday, I actually LIKE my job, to me this is odd, i've never truly enjoyed doing a job before and the fact is that i'm now bringing my work home and continuing it as a hobby.
In case you didn't know, i'm a landscape gardner but I believe i've posted that before. I've asked the lady who owns the building (Ithink that's what she does) and have permission to turn the garden into my own little project where I can do pretty much whatever I want :)
I never thought i'd enjoy this, I took it as a last-ditch job before my options closed in on me and I was forced to something drastic (going back to my mother basically) and i've ended up getting very interested in it to the point I may even consider starting my own business in a year or twos time.
It's a learning process, i've learned some interesting facts like common Hydrangea bushes will flower different colours depending on the acid/alkaline properties of the soil. Also rodedendrums flower from the remains of the previous years flower and if it's removed no more flowering for a while.
This leads me to the new thing I learned and the title of todays ramblings, wasps REALLY don't like when you cut into their bikes with a hedge cutter, REALLY REALLY! I got stung about 6/7 times and i'll tell you a little secret, it's really not pleasant. Good thing I learned tho is that i'm not allergic to wasp venom :)
Anyhoos, enough of me for today, when I get started on the garden here i'll keep youposted, mainly 'cause i'm bored and also i'm trying to share interests, i've been told this may help my mood swings, that however is a story for another time.
Now all together, 1...2...3... COVERED IN BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!!!
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| AARRGGHH STINKY! |
[15 Jun 2006|05:01pm] |
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Oh the joys of landscaping, finished a rather large workload today and headed up to the waste disposal yard (now there's a lot of rubbish there) and proceeded to empty the van.
Unfortunately one of the really big CAT tipper (with wheels bigger than me) comes round the corner at a great rate of knots headed for.... you guessed it, yours truly! Quick decision time, crushed under the wheels or into the pit? No choice really, god did it smell, at least a fortnights worth of rotting grass and other green waste including the not so fresh stuff I had added. Luckily my new pleb saw what happened and started shouting at the guy and threw a handful of mud at him to get his attention and to get me out of the hole. By this time my stomach has emptied and my intestines are trying to escape out my nose, finally got out the hole and had to get hosed down there and then in freezing water.
Two showers later and I still feel manky, clothes are being washed and i'm gonna go for another shower.
Moral of the story, when you forget to wear a high-vis vest, big trucks will squash you.
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| Help |
[29 May 2006|03:04am] |
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That's really all I can say, what do you do when the walls start closing in and no matter how much you try they don't stop coming? Sory if i'm not making any sense but it's how i'm feeling right now and i've no other means to express it.
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